Dream. Believe. Survive!

Belief, hard work, love -- you have those things, you can do anything.

-By Pauline "Posey" Benetto in "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom

It was a line from a dialogue between Chick, Catherine -- Chick's wife and Posey -- Chick's mom. It was one of the times his mother stood up for him. They were arguing if Chick should put up a sports bar or not. Those are the three things that Posey believe can help Chick do and achieve his dreams but apparently not.

Anyways, officially, our first sem of being fourth year is over and another stepping stone is for us to take. But just like Chick, I believe these things are not enough if I want to make it til the end (not actually the end). Yes, you have to believe. Believe that you can, that you can go further, that you can outwit others or that you can be who you want to be. Life is what you make it, they say. 'Pag naniwala ka, mangyayari but if not now, maybe tomorrow, the next day, next month or next year. Just be patient.

But if belief and patience did not work, try those with hard work. Baka naman kasi naniwala o naghintay ka nalang, gumawa ka din. Hindi naman lagi pag naniwala ka, mangyayari. Just like the story of Juan Tamad. Juan Tamad (Tamad means lazy or sluggish) is a boy who slept under a guava tree waiting for a fruit to fall in his mouth. He believed that the fruit will fall so he slept and waited. But when he woke up, the fruit was gone. So you see, being patient and believing alone won't work, it should be coupled with hard work.

But if belief and patience coupled with hard work still fail you, add love, will and optimism.

Love what you do or simply, do what you love. Sabi nga ni Sir Armanel Libunao, "Make your passion your profession".

When you do something because you are loving and enjoying it and not just for compliance sake, you'll be successful. Sabi pa ni Sir Nel, "Kung hindi ka na masaya sa trabaho (o sa ginagawa) mo at hinihintay mo nalang ang sweldo  mo, mag-resign ka na kung hindi, pareho kayong masisira. Masisira ang trabaho mo at ikaw sa mata ng mga tao".

And if finally, you got what you aimed, always show acts of humility. With those things, success will not be so difficult to chase. If i'm to give an unsolicited advice to myself and those who believe me, that would be

"Don't stop thinking about tomorrow", "Stop, relax and have fun when you're tired and weary" and finally sabi ulit ni Sir Nel, "In everything you do, always do your best".  

CRAM Brulee

I am done with my demo teaching! Yahey! So happy (and pretty and witty and bright -- got hooked by the movie 'Anger Management'). It was a mixed of emotions. I felt happy, elated, disappointed, sad and proud. Yes, I am proud of myself. It's an achievement. I am asked to stand in front of the grade 6 pupils and I did. I made it.

Hours before the supposed demo, I was cramming and I hate it. But despite of the cramming, I did not feel nervous and I don't know why (I think I am no longer normal! That's cool!). Just confused. What's really abnormal about me is that I’m thinking I’m nervous, when in fact, I’m not (that's not cool! I'm being neurotic, ain't I?).

During the demo, I’m still cool but a bit tired so I prayed (thank you Lord for staying beside me). It was so fast! One moment, I was cramming and then later, I'm done. I am also glad that I did not receive very negative, downright comments from pushy D! But I do felt dissatisfied with my performance. I know I can do better than that. Anyways, there's always a next time.

After the demo, I had to attend my Monday class which is Inorganic Chem. I'm so exhausted to function that is why I could not absorb the lesson so when we had a quiz, all I could answer was 'what is asked and what are the given'.