CRAM Brulee

I am done with my demo teaching! Yahey! So happy (and pretty and witty and bright -- got hooked by the movie 'Anger Management'). It was a mixed of emotions. I felt happy, elated, disappointed, sad and proud. Yes, I am proud of myself. It's an achievement. I am asked to stand in front of the grade 6 pupils and I did. I made it.

Hours before the supposed demo, I was cramming and I hate it. But despite of the cramming, I did not feel nervous and I don't know why (I think I am no longer normal! That's cool!). Just confused. What's really abnormal about me is that I’m thinking I’m nervous, when in fact, I’m not (that's not cool! I'm being neurotic, ain't I?).

During the demo, I’m still cool but a bit tired so I prayed (thank you Lord for staying beside me). It was so fast! One moment, I was cramming and then later, I'm done. I am also glad that I did not receive very negative, downright comments from pushy D! But I do felt dissatisfied with my performance. I know I can do better than that. Anyways, there's always a next time.

After the demo, I had to attend my Monday class which is Inorganic Chem. I'm so exhausted to function that is why I could not absorb the lesson so when we had a quiz, all I could answer was 'what is asked and what are the given'.