Tirintas

 What? HAHA. I can't do anything. I just keep on braiding and twisting and braiding my hair repeatedly. I am such a nuts! I should have accomplished something by now. Okay! Enough of the bumming...

(After a few moments...) I, still, can't do something relevant. I just keep on doing the same thing. Perhaps, I am thinking that I am one of the Filipino majors. They are tasked to popularise something and that is braiding. It is their culminating activity for their course subject, Kulturang Popular (or Popular Culture).

Long hair, short hair. Highschool student, college student. Waterfall braid, fishtail braid, french twist. I hope, they can fulfill their task.

Look! I braided myself. (4-strand braid) 

Happy Yuletide!

I curled my legs and put my chin on my knees as the Christmas breeze blew. No, it's not yet December and probably not yet Christmas but for us, Filipinos, September is the start of our long celebration of Yuletide Season.

A picture taken during our batch first ever reunion.

To write this, I have to find an inspiration which I am seeing right now. Across our house is a house decorated with Christmas lights and lanterns (we don't have christmas lights, lanterns, christmas tree and snow -- something we can't really have since the last time I checked, Philippines is still located near the equator giving it a tropical climate).

Aside from my birthday and New Year, Christmas is one of my most favorite occasions 'cause it leaves me with good and bad memories. Times when I have to repeatedly use the bathroom to ease my troubled stomach. Times when I have to stop indulging myself with delicious treats 'cause my tooth or teeth is/are already aching. But what I really miss are the people who I spent Christmas with. My cousins, my titos and titas, my lolo and lolas, my friends and my mom. Foods, gifts and their presence are the things that I'm looking forward to. This December, I will try to find time to be reunited again with them.

SweetandSpicy

It's difficult to be friends with people who suffer from mood swings and tantrums but it is more difficult when you are the one who suffers from it. I, personally, hate them but it's a lot different when I'm the one acting that way. I don't know why I have difficulty managing my anger and frustration but I am grateful that I have that attitude for once in a while I get to release my emotions (who wants to be a reservoir of negative feelings?). I find it positive and at the same time negative. It is negative for me since when I'm frustrated I always say or do something that I do not really mean. One thing more is I will not feel apologetic with what I did and will put in my mind that it is just right for them. When I'm pissed or frustrated, I keep on ranting about it and keep on repeating them to someone until I cool down. But it's a whole lot different when I am really angry or furious about something, I usually release it by punching something, abusing someone, usually myself (verbally and nonverbally), listening to music or eating something I crave.

If I don't, I cry (I usually cried when I was angry, a humiliating tendency--a quote by Isabella "Bella" Swan.)  

just me, GIAN MARIEL and i

Since I'm new to this blogging world, I want to start of my blog with a little introduction of myself. You might not feel interested but (whether you like it or not, you will like it) still I want you to know me since there's really none who knows the real me.

The real Gian loves to be under the spotlight. I want to be the center of attention not the center of humiliation for the reason that I'm strong and not because I'm weak. I don't want people pointing out my flaws moreover I am not that narrow-minded person. If you have the guts and can frankly tell it to me in an assertive or constructive manner, of course I would accept it and who knows, I might change. I'm just stubborn and not a hypocrite (both, SOMETIMES).

 I have more ups and downs than usual people I know. When little things get to my nerves, I get frustrated too quickly especially when I'm not in the mood. Normally, I get to get over things easily but not with skin-deep stuffs. They take me days, actually. Consequently, I hate when my carefully made plans are to be changed just because of others. The fact that I exerted effort, time and probably money, I should be given a good reason why I should change it or else I would not! (Oh! I got attitude prob. Who doesn't?) That is the reason why I'm better alone when doing schoolwork. I don't have to ask for others opinion and if something went wrong, I've got no one to blame but myself. Right?

Anyways, if things went wrong I always make sure that I have my ME TIME. And part of that me time is daydreaming, reading, listening to music, eating and thinking about random things. My me time prevents me from my 'oh-so-lost-moments' and allows me to explore things about me.

 My close friends know that I am a music lover and a frustrated singer. Also, I can play the lyre. I am trying (and still trying) to learn playing the guitar but I have really short attention span and usually I get so impatient and fidgety. Those are only few of my negative traits (admitted, I have many but at least I'm trying to work it out).

 Paris said that There's nothing wrong with wanting the best of both worlds. Yeah, agree. I can be very organize and at the same time unorganize. It doesn't usually bother me when my workplace is messy. Conventional and unconventional are also my traits. Really, I hate changes but if it would do good to me, why not? I am a chronic worrier. I get too paranoid everytime I arrive home and find out that my father is not yet home. These days, inside the house is probably the safest place in town (but not really! Gosh, what if maybe those bad guys would sneak out to your house while you are sleeping soundly? I don't want to think of the next).

At times I tend to be indecisive and dependent. I, usually, depend on my friends and my family when it comes to food I will eat, the clothes I will wear and buy. I do not like being highly dependent with others in terms of those things but what I feel when I'm not with them is like a phone without battery. However, I am doing my best to stand on my own feet anyways, it's not hard to do.

I fit in with some groups in our school but surprisingly I am not that friendly. If you would ask people about their first impression on me, there will always be answers such as mean, obnoxious, hard to be friends with and even bitch (I'm kinda bitch sometimes, and mean and obnoxious and hard to be friends with). I tend to be reserved and cautious about making friends with new people that is why I stick with my friends and classmates. Occasionally, you may find me talking to others but not really trusting.

I'm sort of a loner and a homebody. I spend most of my time watching television (probably, til the rest of my life). I watch random movies and TV programs. Aside from good movies and programs, I'm also into good plays, books, and music.

One word to describe me is UNPREDICTABLE. I'm like the weather. I want you to know that these are all about me however I didn't include every bits and pieces of information about me cause I want to leave something for myself. And if I included them all here, surely, we'll be all bored and disinterested. This just proves that people may know me but I know myself better. Pretty sure, some of you will raise their eyebrows but remember people, I'm not trying to please you.